June 15, 2010

An entry I found in my journal from this summer in Brasil:

"This one coming from yours truly in my grand hammock.
After almost 3 weeks I'm still not tired of sleeping in it.
Tired of the setting of this room maybe.
Ugly purple walls and princess boarder, despised by me and Kandi both.
My 2 suitcases stitting in the same spot since I moved in.
Do you ever feel like you live out of a suitcase?
I'm pretty sure I really do.
I love this hammock though.
Slowly forming to my butt.
No other furniture preference from me, thanks.
Nothing beats lying here with my new comfy throw blanket from the market, my pilow, my pen and journal, and the voice of Jaso Mraz singing in my ears while my iPod fights to stay alive.
I COULD use a bottle of Red Diamond and a bag of sunflower seeds next to my favorite sailboat on Lake Eufaula.
Just a few more weeks until I'm home.
Do I sound anxious? I do miss home.
No place like it, right?"

Ramblings Of A Beggar

Would You open up my eyes,
And show me the light,
Take me away, from this place,
Would You open up my eyes and show me the light,
'Cause I cannot make it alone,
I need, I need You,
I need, yes, I need You,
To free me
-Shawn McDonald

Leap of Faith

I might be putting myself out there like never before.
I am taking a big jump
and I am so scared to fall.
They call it taking a risk for a reason.
I want to do this but I shiver just thinking of taking that first step.
It's so surreal.
I know I need to trust you Lord,
but I'm going to need some big help on this one.
Where do I set the boundaries?
What do I hang on to?
Where do I draw the lines?
How will I know the difference between what I want
and what is your will?
Help me. Please.
Stand by me and guide me.
Give me discernment and wisdom.
Without you I will never land on my feet.
I will fall.

"Many are the sorrows of the wicked, but steadfast love surrounds the one who trust in the Lord." -Psalm 32:10